How did I get here?

Well, I'm sure you know how you got here...by some link or website...but how did I get here...that's really the question.  The answer is...I don't really know.

If you were to ask me...I'd say I've been heavy my entire life.  But if you were to look at pictures of me as a kid...you'd see something different.  You'd see a skinny, blond kid who could have been a boy...but you THINK it's a girl.  I think the time in my life that I most remember thinking about my weight was in High School.  I remember getting on a scale and weighing 115lbs and thinking "oh my god, I'm HUGE!"  I was always, in my mind, bigger than the other girls. 

Fast forward to my late 20s...my husband and I couldn't conceive naturally and did IVF.  All those hormones cause you to pack on the pounds if you're not careful.  Lots of ups and downs in life, the birth of my daughter at age 32, working from home and lots of other things have led me to where I am now.  270 lbs at 5 foot 7 and way unhappy with myself.

I think my "wake up call" was my realization that if I died in my sleep, it would be my 9 year old daughter who would be the one to "find me", as my husband leaves for work early and doesn't attempt to wake me.  That realization terrified me.  I do not want that for her.  I want to be around for her for a long time, and I realized that if I didn't make a change, I wouldn't be.

So let me set the stage for you.  I'm 41 years old...I'll be 42 later this year.  I work in a sedentary job from my home.  I currently do not exercise.  However, I've just ordered the 2B Mindset and Shakeology Challenge Kit from Team Beachbody.  This blog is going to be my diary on what I hope is a journey to a new, fitter, healthier me.  Won't you join me?